Im appalled!
Mag says she doesnt love J7!
She only like ussss:(
So i major called k, lil j & big j!
big j & k says she's horrible,
& lil j forgives her zomg, LOL acting nice.
Leaving sch alr so didnt call H hehesxzxz.

Anywayyyyyy, i forgive her too.
She defines her love weirdly, idk how either.
But when melody asked mag if she'll block a bullet for me,
Mag said she will!
Seriously, all is forgiven!
But still, i nvr heard her say she love us before!
Except in sms, msn, whatnots.
Never in real life!:(


She defines love = family.
& she asked kristel to define love,
K, 'Not mag.'
Yay awesome!

But that got me thinkinggggg.
Mag really defines love as family.
She puts them above everything else.
But i pretty much define love as everything i know/see!
Like really everything, such so that it becomes so normal..
I love my family, J7, 412, S09, NHchoir, & my friends!
Kinda literally all my friends!


But like when it really comes to love with depth,
idk you know.
They asked me if i'll block a bullet for my mum.
I didnt say i would, with conviction & certainty.
I went, 'haha my mum can protect herself.'
Lame shizz, i dont know.

But that aside, i really love my family.
Like they are there for me,
but sometimes, it's just financially & in some sort of family way.
Like we're family, yeah it stops at that.
You know what i mean??

We dont do much, other than eating dinner tgt, talking tgt.
But maybe that's what families do, idk!
Sometimes when i talk, my mum ignores me:(
I swear i wasnt talking gibberish!
Only my aunt would listen to me, whether is it crap or not.

Yeah, plus if you didnt know alr, my parents are divorced!
So i dont talk much to my dad either!
But i know he really loves me too!

They werent tgt since i was 3 actually.
I think it's 3, i guess, lol!
Around then, so im pretty open abt it!
Cause i've been living like that all my life,
so i wont be really sad if i see other families or anything.
Cause i know my mum & my dad's still here for me,
even though they are not tgt.
& it's not much of a big deal what!
As long as they love me.

Haha
so weirdly sentimental/emotional tdy.

Yeahhhh, im drifting from whatever i wanted to say.
& i forgot what i wanted to say alr.
LOL im such a crap digressor & i dont focus enough!

Anyway, i still cant figure how i think abt love.
I love my family, i really really do.
Edit/
I DELETED THIS WHOLE CHUNK CAUSE IT'S REALLY GIBBERISH.

Wait, this is getting too deep in.

I dont normally do emotional stuff.
Like i dont think so much,
or talk so much about my family.
But tdy just felt like a talking day!

Just in case you're wondering,
Im okay! HAHA
Im thinking if this post makes sense or not,
it's like me talking abt defining love,
then about my family,
LOL so random.

Idk abt love,
but i really love everybody around me.
Just different degrees of love towards different people?
No actually i dont,
i love some of my friends,
but i like some of my friends.
Omg im contradicting!

Ok, brain's fried.
Real bad, i got to wake up tmr morning EARLY.
For GP lecture again, thanks ah.

Maybe i need a new hair colour!